I've been on deviantart with this account for 4 months and counting, and I have the smallest number of pageviews ever. I feel so insignificant.

Anyway, christmas is over. New years is looming. 2009 nine was sad. 2010 will hopefully be better. Forgive me father for I have sinned... a lot. Yadda yadda yadda. I hafta go to f****** mass tomorow. Great idea dad, 'lets bring the athiest to church AGAIN just to see how she'll react. I wonder if Isa will snap this time?' I'll put pentagrams and upside down crosses in each of your bibles while your not watching, damn it. If only I had the courage to say "No, dad." But I've never been able to, and never will be able to say no. Which is precicely why i will NEVER go to the school i want, or speak out of turn when i am around them and not feel bad, or not be afraid to say that i'm smart when you let me be and leave me alone. Because I am not some retarted blonde emo chick, like they are so convinced I am. It frustrates me so much.